Self Bondage

I first discovered self bondage about 2 years ago. I came across a few sites about it and after initial dismisal of the idea I decided to give it a try

My first attempts where very basic. I forced myself to lay naked but untied on the bed for 30mins (signalled by an alarm clock). It seemed like forever until the clock went off. Within hours I was planning proper albeit basic slef bondage

I realised Ice was probably the way to go about it. I filled a bottle with water and left the ends of shoelaces in it to freeze. The next day it was frozen solid and I used the unfrozen ends to tie my hands through the bars on the headboard

I would have been able to get loose easily had i need to but the feeling of being tied was a good one

From there I experimented more with keys in ice and on string. One memoral attmept was to hang the key up in the living room and then whilst hogtied with belts and scarves have to crawl on my front around the house to get to it. I arrnaged furniture to make it a longer route and my the time i finally got to it not only was i sore and cbered in carpet burns I was incredibly turned on

Another version was tying my hands onto a clothes rail I was lay under with the key frozen in an ice cube. I also had clothes pegs used as improvise nipple clamps

However, since those few weeks of slef bondage I have had no further goes. Manily this was due to moving out of my own place and having spent the last two years sharing flats and houses. But tonight I stumbled across some slefbondage fiction and reawoke my intrest. I have my flat all to myslef for a month later in the year and am going to use the time inbetween to plan and prepare for a few good and more intresting self bondage sessions. Im going to buy some toys (the first i'll have ever bought) and research different methods and ideas hopefully building to a very intense and very fun time!

Princess

About 2 years ago a message sent on Collar Me got a reply. It was sent more in hope than expectation so getting the reply was a good moment. Little did I know it would be start of a friendship that still carries on to this day and could potential go on for a long time

Princess first caugth my eye due to how stunning and beautiful she looked. A quick message saying hello and I was looking to learn and make friends was answered in a friendly and kind way. Many times I had sent similar messages and had no replies. Other times the person turned out to be fake or just looking for quick money

However, Princess was different. Over course of a few days we sent more messages. She was also sub in long term relationship so happy to chat, give advice and guidance. We chatted more both on Collar Me and MSN over the coming months.

Then I noticed she was looking, with permission of her Master, to branch out and explore her Domme side. This was the catalyst that moved us on to the next level. Since then we have chatted more and more about my role as sub and her's as Domme. How we could play and explore together. Meeting up has been mentioned, photos swapped, taks completed online and role play engaged in but always as friends. Her life and family, my life and vanilla relationships always kept it online and when did look to get together things got in the way and plans rearranged

In the last few weeks tho something seems to have changed in us both. We both now feel comfortable (yet both HIGHLY nervous) to meet up and play. Obviously her Master has kindly given permission and will be present but it looks like, 2 years from that first, short message I could have found my Princess

Background

Ok, time to fill you all in abit more

I first thought of BDSM and submission in a dream I had when younger. Dreamt I was in a world of only females. I was kept naked and chained. Used for viewing and experiemnting on whilst tied down or led around on a lead

As I got older I thought back to that dream more often and added and changed parts of it. I first relaised more people where intrested in being tied when read in the paper when I was 13 about a teacher who had sex with her pupil. She got him to cuff her and bite her nipplels. I changed the roles around and imagined being the pupil cuffed by a teacher

From there it grew to other thoughts such as being humilaited by some girls from school who watched and laughed as I had sex with one of them or who chained me to a wall and teased and laughed at me while they stripped and made me address them as Mistress, Dutchess etc

As I got older and got access to the internet I was able to look into it more and realise there is a huge scene out there and that it goes from the basic tie and tease to the more intense and hardcore

After few years learning and chatting online I finally got the courage to attend a munch where I met a few people I keep in touch with. As a result I got to my first club a few months later. Although I didnt play I did watch and get to see first hand some of the things I'd long dreamt about

I went to another club a month or so later and thats where I got my first chance to play. Although only basic I was in the, several times I visted, able to experience spanking, canning, nipple play, bondage, elctric wand to name a few

However, thats where I seem to be stuck. Since my last visit to that club I've had no play at all, mainly due to moving to London and not having had chance to get out on scene yet. What I do know is I'm missing it and want to get back involved soon but on a more regular basis. I have tried casual play and enjoyed it but feel its time to move on to something more. To meet with someone more often and to grow and explore with them. Someone who has experience and can make me thing in a new way and push my limits

I've realised in the past few weeks that theres something missing from my life and I'd pretty sure thats it. Hopefully I can find a solution soon and kick start my submissive journey

Im a sub

Hello everyone (not that think there be more than a handful of people who'll ever read this)

First things first..........I'm a sub!

I have never admitted to anyone outside the BDSM scene that I'm a sub, that I love submission, bondage, humilaition, lack of control and all the other things that come with it. This is my first ever attempt at blogging and the reason for starting a blog is to, hopefully, give me a place to get my thoughts across in a more clear way and to have an outlet for the things I'm to nervous and shy to say in public to more than a few people or outisde of certain clubs and settings

Already as I write this I feel as if a weights being lifted off me. I will attempt to keep this up, even if im the only person who ever reads it.