Background

Ok, time to fill you all in abit more

I first thought of BDSM and submission in a dream I had when younger. Dreamt I was in a world of only females. I was kept naked and chained. Used for viewing and experiemnting on whilst tied down or led around on a lead

As I got older I thought back to that dream more often and added and changed parts of it. I first relaised more people where intrested in being tied when read in the paper when I was 13 about a teacher who had sex with her pupil. She got him to cuff her and bite her nipplels. I changed the roles around and imagined being the pupil cuffed by a teacher

From there it grew to other thoughts such as being humilaited by some girls from school who watched and laughed as I had sex with one of them or who chained me to a wall and teased and laughed at me while they stripped and made me address them as Mistress, Dutchess etc

As I got older and got access to the internet I was able to look into it more and realise there is a huge scene out there and that it goes from the basic tie and tease to the more intense and hardcore

After few years learning and chatting online I finally got the courage to attend a munch where I met a few people I keep in touch with. As a result I got to my first club a few months later. Although I didnt play I did watch and get to see first hand some of the things I'd long dreamt about

I went to another club a month or so later and thats where I got my first chance to play. Although only basic I was in the, several times I visted, able to experience spanking, canning, nipple play, bondage, elctric wand to name a few

However, thats where I seem to be stuck. Since my last visit to that club I've had no play at all, mainly due to moving to London and not having had chance to get out on scene yet. What I do know is I'm missing it and want to get back involved soon but on a more regular basis. I have tried casual play and enjoyed it but feel its time to move on to something more. To meet with someone more often and to grow and explore with them. Someone who has experience and can make me thing in a new way and push my limits

I've realised in the past few weeks that theres something missing from my life and I'd pretty sure thats it. Hopefully I can find a solution soon and kick start my submissive journey